Sunday 29 May 2016

Day 12 - Positive Energy

Throughout my day I see myself accessing positive energy, believing that I need it to be able to be able to get by in the world in an effective way. To get by the day in a ‘charmed’ way so to speak. It will even come to a point where I do not wish to carry out tasks or responsibilities unless I first can see that I have the energy bank filled - or I will wait for it to be filled before I fulfil a particular task.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I need energy to move through the world in a way in which I am happy with myself, where I can show the best side of myself through showing that I have lots of energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I need energy to live my utmost potential in the world.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I am not able to be at my best without having high energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the belief that I must always show a positivity in what I think, say, and do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I must be in a state of high energy to be able to fulfil all of my responsibilities as well as participate in extracurricular activities, that without having a surplus of energy - I will not be able to do the things that I need and want to do in my life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined by energy, not seeing, realising, or understanding that the energy I refer to is a mental energy, and that this mental energy throughout my life has always dissipated and ‘run out’. Thus if I am allowing myself to only move from a point of mental energy then when I do not have this mental energy I will not do the things that need to be done because I will believe that I have run out of steam.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realise, and understand that there is mental energy, and physical energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a seeking out of positive energy so that I can get a ‘fix’ because I secretly love positive energy and the feelings it gives me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that it is ‘okay’ to participate in positive energies.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only ‘feel better’ in any moment dependant upon whether I have positive energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use positive energies as little rays of sunshine within myself and my life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto positive energy within the belief that within positive energy life has meaning, not seeing, realising, or understanding that how I feel does not have to be based on positive energy mind experiences, but that I have a choice to be stable in who I am.


When and as I see myself seeking out a positive energy experience, I stop and I breathe. I will myself to see that this positive energy is a self creation and that I cannot use it as a solution towards the ‘problems’ and responsibilities I have in my life - as by its very nature it will dissipate and return to nothing, and then after the high I will be left feeling low.


Thus I will myself to let go of these positive energy moments through speaking the forgiveness statement ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to access the energy of positivity in this moment - believing that I need to be positive to function effectively in this moment - not seeing, realising, and understanding that all I Have to do is breathe and direct myself within common sense, within self honesty, and through this discover, what is the movement, action, or words that I can speak that will be aligned to what is best for all?

Monday 23 May 2016

Day 11 - Directive



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that being directive means being in charge of things.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I must be in charge of things because it shows I have power.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realise, and understand that I am defining myself as somebody who does not have any power as this is revealed to me in my need to show people that I have power. Hence showing myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as powerless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to secretly wish that I was a leader.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the fantasy that I am a leader of people, not fully seeing, realising, or understanding that this only exists within my mind as fantasies and imaginations, where I take real life situations out of context and make them more than they actually are.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that being directive means telling people what to do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that telling people what to do means showing power, not seeing, realising, or understanding that real power is something which I have not fully grasped yet, which I have not yet defined for myself. So I see that I must base my power on self honesty and living words that I have ‘formatted’ and redefined for myself in a way that supports All.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that telling people what to do and how to do it makes me a better person.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as this belief that being a better person must come from outside of me and must be exhibited in my actions of being able to effectively lead and shepherd people, not seeing, realising, and understanding that what I really want for myself is to be an upstanding human being whose living is based on principles that benefit, whose existence adds instead of takes away.

Therefore I will myself to let go of the notion that being this ideal human being, this ideal version of myself must come from outside of myself, willing myself to see, realise, and understand that this potential principled living of me can only come from within myself as how I choose to breathe, think, and act in the world, and whether or not this is based upon self honesty.


I will myself to see, realise, and understand that real power, real authority comes from a self stability that itself comes from getting to know oneself, through the tools of writing and self forgiveness I direct myself to become this power within myself and my life and to apply these tools everyday for myself.


When and as I see myself going into a fantasy of being a leader of people, or having control and/or authority I stop and I breathe - and I will myself to see where this fantasy is coming from, and in seeing where it has come from to stop and release myself through self forgiveness and breath, and to come back down to reality where the real work of self improvement happens. Because self improvement does not come to me from my mind’s projections and hallucinations but rather it comes about through dedicated self investigation in self honesty.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on fantasy to placate any real world desire to self expansion.



Monday 2 May 2016

Day 10 - Stable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a judgement of myself as not being stable enough in my life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as unstable.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I am unstable because I have too many thoughts moving through my head, not seeing, realising, or understanding that I am the mover of my thoughts. Furthermore not seeing, realising, and understanding that I am not yet aware of how or why I move into particular thought patterns and that self honest investigation is required to understand the root and beginnings of each thought that I have allowed to pass through me, and that through understanding by writing and forgiveness I can begin my process of stopping.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I am a stable human being, when in reality I can see that I am cycling between ups and downs as feelings and emotions, not seeing, realising, or understanding how I am peddling the gears of my mind within my imagination to fool myself into going into feeling or emotion.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that it is other things outside of myself that make me unstable, believing that situations and peoples in my life are the causes of what makes me angry or upset. Pinning the blame on other things and people for how I am within myself. Not being able to see that I am the root cause of my reactions towards these points in my world. and so I react when these points in my world do not go the way I had wished them to go - then throwing myself into turmoil, believing that I have no choice in the matter but to feel a certain way.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise, and understand that I am in fact living the consequences of my past decisions to act/not act, seeing now that I can actually begin to stop living these consequences through simply moving myself to do what is necessary in the moment, before the situations becomes unstable.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that I need to hold some kind of ‘special energy reserve‘ to get through emotional turbulences in my life, and that I must call on this reserve whenever things are not going as planned.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that being stable means not being affected by things, not seeing, realising, nor understanding that being unaffected does not give me a pass to ignore the situation and allow it to get worse.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realise, and understand that being stable is staying able, and that staying able entails being aware of the situation and working With it so as to allow it to blossom into a solution that is best.


When and as I see myself as assigning blame for something that I am experiencing within myself, to someone else - I stop and I breathe - and I will myself to see, realise, and understand the madness of what I am saying to myself as the belief that another person/thing/situation can be responsible for the way I am experiencing myself Within Myself. I will myself investigate and release the points through writing and self forgiveness so that I can come to a point of clarity and understanding on the situation, so that I stop blaming others for my instability and start taking authority of myself through taking authorship over each and every aspect of myself as my mind.


Thus doing simple things like preparing the groundwork for projects instead of waiting for the last minute to get things done, and then allowing myself to experience the trials and tribulations that come with not having fulfilled responsibilities, thereby removing any causes for discomfort later on down the road, knowing that I have taken all the necessary steps I have needed too.


Thus I will myself to see, realise, and understand that the first step is to be Truly unmoved by things that are happening around me, being the definition of stable as the words ‘firmly established’ within myself through the process of writing and self forgiveness - but to then see that there is another step that needs to be taken which is to work With the situation - to make it the Best that it can be, to not allow it to fester into some greater problem but to rather see and then take the steps that need to be taken to remediate the situation.


I will myself to see that in all instances of life prevention is the best cure and that this principle can be lived by just seeing what needs to be done Before it needs to be done, not waiting for situations to develop and ambush me, but rather taking active steps to prevent and remedy problems before and as they arise.